How Long Do We Really Have?...

It's confirm that sooner or later, each and every one of us will die. But for some, sooner comes sooner rather than later. What's worse if you have people giving you a period for you to live. That really sucks because everytime you do not utilise what little time you have, you feel like you want to kill yourself because you wasted something you can never get back. Time.
But does that mean time is your friend, or you enemy?

I mean look at it this way, yes you have very little time left but you finally get the courage you would never do in a million years. Like, "hey, i going to die in a few days anyway, what's a day early."

But it's your enemy when you know you can't spend time with the people you love and no matter what you do or no matter what they say, you keep thinking that the time you are spending with that person is you last and everytime you try to squeeze in some time for that person but they can't make it, it's always heartbreaking but you know it's not their fault because you know that they don't know how long you have.

But why? Why not just tell people that you are dying, well, based on research, it's all about sympathy. I mean whats the point of meeting someone if all they do is just feel sorry for you because you're time there is limited, what's worse if you have to spend your time in a stupid room in a hospital. If it was up to me, I would rather spend my time as happy as possible rather than sulk in self-pity, but it's not as easy as it sounds. It's hard, holding everything in, knowing that telling them the truth will change everything, like the way they treat you, the way the look at you, just different. Different is not neccessary bad, but with the amount of time, how would you adapt to the changes. Well, when you know the period that you have, you can't help but figure out what you're going to miss, but that's life, or rather, death.