Sighs...

I seriously couldn't think of a better title. I guess that how, wear out I am. Sleep is nothing but a myth to me or maybe its more like a fairy tale.....

Juggling, I guess that is the activity of the year for me. But I'm not talking about juggling life or the different portions of your life. For me, i have to juggle baggage, emotional baggage to be precise. Baggage and lies, that is all I juggle now. There are moments when I feel like giving up and telling the truth but I know the truth is overrated. Whoever said, "The truth would set you free", should be hanged and shot. If you want to know what the truth can do, go watch the show moment of truth, though I find the show very utterly disgusting, the consquences are all so true. Now, i'm stuck with another lie in my face. Living another lie, but I just can't bear to let it go because for the first time in my life, I finally find myself where I want to be, but my utopia is not to be because of obstacles that others cannot surpass. So again, I end up alone over the ridge and in the fields, wondering if the grass is really greener on the otherside. It is pathetic that I found comfort in her misery, but I guess one gesture of love was all I was looking for, and now that gesture has been reversed, I feel like I'm back to where I started. Working harder than even before just so I could get ahead a little further. It's human to want more, but so is to err. I guess I have to be contented with the situtation at hand, I mean, I'm even lucky to have anything at all, but I guess it was my turn to be tired, I was tired for the last 20 years, what's another 20 more...

If you were to see some other blogs you would probably see the song that is shown below. Anyway, enjoy... :)

"I'm always ok..."

~ Amin SK....

A Post for the New Year...

It's been a while since my last post, I thought of waiting for the birthday of my blog to post the first post of the New Year but I realise I miss my blog's birthday by 4 days. Sorry Bloggie...

Anyway, I would really like to send my condolences to two families. To the Travolta family, who lost a dear son and brother. It was a tragic start to their New Year and I wish for them the strength to move on and live past this horrible mishap.

To the Ng family, who are now in my prayers, have lost a wife, a mother, a son and a brother. Mr Ng a loving husband and father, has a heart that was almost pure, he could have made any regular person look like the devil. It is sad that such a tragedy could happen in such hard times. When I was in OCBC, he risked his own job just to save a stupid bunch of interns, and til now that gesture is remembered. But knowing Mr Ng, he would raise his head high, and carry on to work to raise his remaining children and hopefully put this tragedy behind him.

A rough start for alot of us but I guess we will all pull through, if not there are many ways available to end our own lives. The ways are only limited to our imagination. This New Year, alot of quotes that have been coming my way have been proven right. For example, "Some guys got all the luck", I really hate this one, because I'm not one of the guys. Through my life, I've been stabbed, kicked, punched, rammed, pummeled, slashed, hit by a car, slapped, whipped and lots more. Some of these words I used are for the sake of expression, but some are really true. The term, "loser" was also proved right this year. I've called that a thousand times and though I never really paid much attention to it, it seems like it was true all along. I guess there alot of things I could say or describe but I think it is just irritating to all who is reading this. So below is a song I attached, it will be my theme for this year, "A New Year, A Different Kind Of Pain"....

Hope you guys like it like I do....