He ain't heavy, he my brother...

"When was the last time you cried?" That was a question posed to me by my brother not too long ago, and as I hugged him goodbye today, I was hoping that the emotion was enough to make me tear up a little, and if that didn't work I was hoping that the sight of my mom crying her eyes out will. Nope, both didn't work. Crap... I mean, I use to cry alot, among all the brothers, I'm the so called sensitive one (ironic, huh, despite the fact that I'm EVIL)....sorry just thinking to myself....

Where was I? Oh ya...so bro, once again you leave me for another year or so. It was fun having you back here, and the classic times we had...damn EPIC!!! HAHA! I will miss the stupid laughs, lame jokes and the constant BANZAI!!!!(even until my bed broke) I know we didn't get to part ways on the right terms this time but that didn't stop us to have one last fun.

Bye bro...if you reading this, know that I always love you though you piss me off almost every second...I will miss the late night 7-eleven runs the most, and the weird shit we eat...haha...


P.S. Thx for the phone...

The Results Are In...

Today was suppose to be a good day for me, but like always, I get kicked in the nuts when I least expected it. It was the 2 today and as for what I can say I think its going strong. Ups, downs, we made it through...

But after a message came through, I'm getting kicked in the nuts again. For my fellow man, who was with me this whole year, I apologise again. By the time you see this you would probably seen your results yourself. All I can say is, I am sorry again. I really tried, and as the first day I knew we would be in the same group together I tried my hardest to make sure history does not repeat itself. I was the leader yet I could not be there because I had to attend to personal matters, not that I'm using sickness as an excuse but I guess I just was not strong enough to handle all the responsibility. Despite the fact that the group elected me as the leader either because I was the scapegoat or because I was really the one to lead, I should have done a better job. I'm sorry if you are disappointed and if you want someone to blame, I'm right here. You can dump the blame on me, I probably deserve it anyway. You really did your best even though the circumstances were against us and you should be proud. I really feel bad and hope we can look beyond this and that this does not affect our friendship....

I'm sorry...

Deja Vu or Routine...

How is it after so long and after I tried so hard that I end up sitting here all alone once again trying to figure out the next move. I am literally stuck because I can't leave nor can I stay. But how can it be that I find myself in the same position every year. Knowing that I try so hard to change it. It is either I face the storm out there or I have to deal with my own storm brewing right inside me...

Decisions, decisions...

ARGH!!!!....

I've Done 78 out of 132 Stupid Things In My Life...

Again, found this in Facebook and it was quite interesting because I wanted to know how BIG of an idiot I really am...wanted to just post this in Facebook but just as I wanted to press post I realise my brothers and sisters are in Facebook... :P

Level 1
() Smoked A Cigarette
() Smoked A Cigar
() Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(X) Drank Alcohol

SO FAR: 1

Level 2
(X) Are / Been In Love
(X) Been Dumped
(X) Shoplifted
() Been Fired
(x) Been In A Fist Fight
SO FAR: 5

Level 4
(X) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(X) Skipped School
() Slept With A Co-worker
(X) Seen Someone / Something Die

SO FAR: 7

Level 5
(X) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
() Been To Paris
() Been To Spain
(X) Been On A Plane
(X) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 11

Level 6
(X) Eaten Sushi
() Been Snowboarding
() Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook
() Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 12

Level 7
() Been In An Abusive Relationship
(X) Taken Pain Killers (Medicine)
(X) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(X) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
() Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 15

Level 8
() Had A Tea Party
() Flown A Kite
(X) Built A Sand Castle
() Gone mudding (offroading)
() Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 16

Level 9
(X) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
() Gone Sledging
(X) Cheated While Playing A Game
(X) Been Lonely
(X) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO FAR: 20

Level 10
(X) Watched The Sun Set
() Felt An Earthquake
() Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 21

Level 11
(X) Been Tickled
(X) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(X) Been cheated on
(X) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 25

Level 12
(X) Won A Contest
() Been Suspended From School
(X) Had Detention
(X) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 28

Level 13
() Had / Have Braces
(X) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(X) Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 30
Level 14
(X) Hated The Way You Look
(X) Witnessed A Crime
() Pole Danced
(X) Questioned Your Heart
(X) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 34

Level 15
(X) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(X) Been Lost
(X) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World (Where exactly is the opp side of the world?)
() Swam In The Ocean
(X) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 38

Level 16
(X) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(X) Played Cops And Robbers
() Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(X) Sang Karaoke
(X) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 42

Level 17
(X) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(X) Made a Prank Phone Call
(X) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
() Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 45

Level 18
(X) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(X) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(X) Blown Bubbles
() Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere (Does BBQ count??)

SO FAR: 48

Level 19
(X) Crashed A Party
(X) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
() Gone Rollerskating / Blading
() Had A Wish Come True
() Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR: 50

Level 20
() Worn Pearls
() Jumped Off A Bridge
(X) Swore at the teacher, in front of them
() Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 51
Level 22
(X) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
() Kissed A Fish
() Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(X) Sat On A Roof Top (And I'm afraid of heights...hmmm....)

SO FAR: 53

Level 23
(X) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(X) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
() Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(X) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 56

Level 24
() Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(X) Climbed A Tree
() Had/Been in a tree house.
(X) Been scared to watch scary movies alone

SO FAR: 58

Level 25
(X) Believed In Ghosts
() Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
() Gone Streaking
() Visited Jail

SO FAR: 59

Level 26
() Played Chicken
(X) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
() Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
() Broken A Bone
(X) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 61

Level 27

() Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
() Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
(X) Caught A Butterfly
(X) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(X) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 64

Level 28
() Mooned/Flashed Someone
(X) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(X) Cheated On A Test
(X) Forgotten Someone's Name
() French Braided Someones Hair
() Gone Skinny Dipping
(X) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
(X)Tried to hurt yourself

SO FAR: 69

Level 29
(X) Rode A Roller Coaster
(X) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
() Had A Cavity
(X) Black-Mailed Someone
(X) Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 73

Level 30
(X) Been Used
(X) Fell Going Up The Stairs
() Licked A Cat
(X) Bitten Someone
(X) Licked Someone

SO FAR: 77

Level 31
() Been shot at/or at gunpoint
() Had sex in the rain
(X) Flattened someones tires
() Rode your car/truck until the gas light came on
() Got five dollars or less worth of gas

SO FAR: 78