There have been many claims that the music you listen to can change your day or your life...
Here's one song that I think reminds me of me...
Animal I Have Become
I can't escape this hell
So many times i've tried
But i'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal(This animal, this animal)
I can't escape myself(I can't escape myself)
So many times i've lied(So many times i've lied)
But there's still rage inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
Somebody help me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
Somebody wake me from this nightmare
I can't escape this hell
So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal(This animal I have become)
As you can see...the song is a very disturbing but i can't help it. Hopefully, I can change my soundtrack soon...(somehow i get the feeling it's never gonna change)
Friday, February 29, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Dream, dream, dream...
Before I start, I think its best that I apologise to a friend of mine who came to me for advise and all I did was rub it in. You see, for the past 3 days, I only had about less than 8 hours of sleep in total. Why? Well, for the most part of it, I was drunk, the other reason, everytime I close my eyes I see her, her, her, her and her...who are they? Well, that will be a very long story now wouldn't it. Anyway, I want to apologise because I did something that no friend should do...I brought him down. He would probably ignore this because he hate these mushy things, but that's just him.
Now, on with the real reason I writing this. Since now, I am slightly sober, I think I can wrtie this entry. Dreams have been around for many centuries. Joan of Arc had dreams saying that it was a message from God. Abraham Lincoln had a dream of his death before he was assassinated. So what are dreams exactly? Are they some sort of divine message or a peek into a future. My answer...I don't have the slightest clue. I have done research and alot of it, those who know me would know, but in all my months of research, I could not find anything solid or definite answer and until now they are still researching what dreams really mean.
So what do dreams mean to me? Well, to me it depends on what kind of dreams. In a book I read, the author said that were 5 types of dreams, ok...I would tell you what that 5 types are but I think my head is splitting...well, moving on, dreams nowadays are just killing me. Ok fine, dreams are just touturing to me...better not continue...
Okok, I'll talk about what I think dreams mean to people in general, or so I think. There is a song which states, "Dreams are wishes, the heart makes", I think that is a good way of putting it. But more importantly, it is about hope. And that is where I was wrong about what I told my friend. When I was cooking just now, I sliced my hand open (don't know whether on purpose or not, I'm still drunk, HAHAHA), and as I saw blood flowing down my hand, I wondering why I was still alive, why does my broken heart was ten times the agony of that of my open wound, and I realise the only real thing to live for is hope. Hope is all I have in this world where my life is going down. I mean, I'm in love with someone I can NEVER go for, I have friends who are contemplating suicide, my family might declare bankruptcy, I have no bloody future, I'm an drunk and stoned out of my skull and there is blood all over my laptop as I am typing this. But somehow, deep down, somewhere down there, I have a little speck of hope. And that is where dreams come in. I mean you don't always have a friend or family to tell you that everything is going to be alright so you have yourself, and subconciously that is what your dreams tell you. They tell you that everything is going to work out. Ever had a dream of the future and you swear its so real? Well, that is your subconcious telling you that, that future might come true and whether good or bad, subconciously, you are just telling yourself that you can make it happen or change it. Nothing is written in stone, except the day you leave this earth. So your dreams are actually that little speck of hope in your so called pathetic life. Don't get me wrong, dreams have been horrible for me but I probably deserve it...for you out there, dreams are the messages you were looking for, the boost in confidence that you needed and the one thing that is stopping you from killing yourself. So hold on to your dreams, and work at it to make it come true. Well that is what I think anyway...like I said there really isn't real solid answer yet so until someone does give me a concrete answer, I think I'm going to go have a drink...
Now, on with the real reason I writing this. Since now, I am slightly sober, I think I can wrtie this entry. Dreams have been around for many centuries. Joan of Arc had dreams saying that it was a message from God. Abraham Lincoln had a dream of his death before he was assassinated. So what are dreams exactly? Are they some sort of divine message or a peek into a future. My answer...I don't have the slightest clue. I have done research and alot of it, those who know me would know, but in all my months of research, I could not find anything solid or definite answer and until now they are still researching what dreams really mean.
So what do dreams mean to me? Well, to me it depends on what kind of dreams. In a book I read, the author said that were 5 types of dreams, ok...I would tell you what that 5 types are but I think my head is splitting...well, moving on, dreams nowadays are just killing me. Ok fine, dreams are just touturing to me...better not continue...
Okok, I'll talk about what I think dreams mean to people in general, or so I think. There is a song which states, "Dreams are wishes, the heart makes", I think that is a good way of putting it. But more importantly, it is about hope. And that is where I was wrong about what I told my friend. When I was cooking just now, I sliced my hand open (don't know whether on purpose or not, I'm still drunk, HAHAHA), and as I saw blood flowing down my hand, I wondering why I was still alive, why does my broken heart was ten times the agony of that of my open wound, and I realise the only real thing to live for is hope. Hope is all I have in this world where my life is going down. I mean, I'm in love with someone I can NEVER go for, I have friends who are contemplating suicide, my family might declare bankruptcy, I have no bloody future, I'm an drunk and stoned out of my skull and there is blood all over my laptop as I am typing this. But somehow, deep down, somewhere down there, I have a little speck of hope. And that is where dreams come in. I mean you don't always have a friend or family to tell you that everything is going to be alright so you have yourself, and subconciously that is what your dreams tell you. They tell you that everything is going to work out. Ever had a dream of the future and you swear its so real? Well, that is your subconcious telling you that, that future might come true and whether good or bad, subconciously, you are just telling yourself that you can make it happen or change it. Nothing is written in stone, except the day you leave this earth. So your dreams are actually that little speck of hope in your so called pathetic life. Don't get me wrong, dreams have been horrible for me but I probably deserve it...for you out there, dreams are the messages you were looking for, the boost in confidence that you needed and the one thing that is stopping you from killing yourself. So hold on to your dreams, and work at it to make it come true. Well that is what I think anyway...like I said there really isn't real solid answer yet so until someone does give me a concrete answer, I think I'm going to go have a drink...
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Valentine's Day (Part 4)
Valentine's Day is for people to show their love to one another but sometimes even the best of plan backfires, and it may break your heart, but not everybody can handle a broken heart.
If you read my previous entries, you might know a friend of mine named Alex(not his real name, by the way). He is the mastermind who after so long actually found out the name with the girl he likes. Not only that, he is actually good friends with that girl. One problem, the girl he likes, is in love with another guy who happens to be his friend. Of course he was pissed, but he is not the type to hold a grudge against his friends. Anyway, he had taking a beating to his heart for quite sometime and everytime he sees her, his heart just explodes. So, I advise him to just go for it, on Valentine's Day admit his feelings in the most extravagent way. And that's what he did....
He took my song that i wrote (I couldn't hate you), and play it for her, together with a dozen roses, and a card with a poem in it saying how it really felt. What happen...Iris(not her real name) took it as a joke and just laughed. The worse part is she showed the class and the whole class started to tease him. What did he do, he just laughed with them and at the end of the day he just went home and refuse to do anything. He has not return to school since then. All he does now, he sits at the balcony of his place comtemplating whether to jump or just sit there for the rest of his life and with all this happening, he blames me for it. Damn, the day when my heart got broken, his heart got shattered and he blames me. I can't talk to him because he doesn't want to hear from me. So i told him when he decides to jump, give me a message so that i could join him. Look at it this way, if he jumps, I am going to blame myself for it and I don't think I can take that much guilt, so might as well end it all.
It really is a shame really, Alex had the world in his hands. He is a freaking genius, he is a mastermind, but with his heart shattered, there is no blood going to brain so no matter how genius his brain is, it cannot function. And its a shame because he has a 3.5 GPA and its all going down. I mean what has he done wrong? All he did was love a girl he could not get and unlike most people, he just dont handle emotional situation very well. What girls don't realise is that sometimes they have the power to build or destroy a guy. I mean, I get my heart broken time and time again and although I do contemplate suicide, I dont do it. But Alex is different, he is a good person and he doesn't deserve this type of treatment. Alex is so nice, he probably, make Gandhi look bad. He is studying, chemical engineering so as he could try to discover a way to bring power to third-world countries. He's so nice, we actually missed our train and missed our movie just because he wanted to help an old lady who fell down the escalator. He donates to every charity available. He remembers everybody's birthday. He remembers every single detail of the Iris's habits. I mean he is not a stalker, he is just a nice guy who pays attention to detail. I mean how you think he got a 3.5 GPA. He remembers stuff, like the way her nose crinkles when she smiles, or the way her eyes is teared up when she fakes a smile to hide her sadness, or the way she curls up on the chair when she sits in the lab or the way she hugs herself when she is feeling cold. He is the type of guy, who offer his jacket, buys for her, her favourite ice cream when she is feeling down, who would make her laugh when she frowns. The typical nice guy.
And by listening to me, all these disappears in a blink of an eye. I'm suppose to be his friend but I didnt know that he could not handle rejection well. How, am I suppose to smile when I just destroyed one of the greatest human being on this planet. Sigh...I know love hurts but this is too much, I mean Iris is doesnt know what she's missing. All I can do is hope that hopefully one day Alex will come to his senses. He wont take my calls or my messages and its just sad. There is a saying, "Hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn". I guess they were right...
If you read my previous entries, you might know a friend of mine named Alex(not his real name, by the way). He is the mastermind who after so long actually found out the name with the girl he likes. Not only that, he is actually good friends with that girl. One problem, the girl he likes, is in love with another guy who happens to be his friend. Of course he was pissed, but he is not the type to hold a grudge against his friends. Anyway, he had taking a beating to his heart for quite sometime and everytime he sees her, his heart just explodes. So, I advise him to just go for it, on Valentine's Day admit his feelings in the most extravagent way. And that's what he did....
He took my song that i wrote (I couldn't hate you), and play it for her, together with a dozen roses, and a card with a poem in it saying how it really felt. What happen...Iris(not her real name) took it as a joke and just laughed. The worse part is she showed the class and the whole class started to tease him. What did he do, he just laughed with them and at the end of the day he just went home and refuse to do anything. He has not return to school since then. All he does now, he sits at the balcony of his place comtemplating whether to jump or just sit there for the rest of his life and with all this happening, he blames me for it. Damn, the day when my heart got broken, his heart got shattered and he blames me. I can't talk to him because he doesn't want to hear from me. So i told him when he decides to jump, give me a message so that i could join him. Look at it this way, if he jumps, I am going to blame myself for it and I don't think I can take that much guilt, so might as well end it all.
It really is a shame really, Alex had the world in his hands. He is a freaking genius, he is a mastermind, but with his heart shattered, there is no blood going to brain so no matter how genius his brain is, it cannot function. And its a shame because he has a 3.5 GPA and its all going down. I mean what has he done wrong? All he did was love a girl he could not get and unlike most people, he just dont handle emotional situation very well. What girls don't realise is that sometimes they have the power to build or destroy a guy. I mean, I get my heart broken time and time again and although I do contemplate suicide, I dont do it. But Alex is different, he is a good person and he doesn't deserve this type of treatment. Alex is so nice, he probably, make Gandhi look bad. He is studying, chemical engineering so as he could try to discover a way to bring power to third-world countries. He's so nice, we actually missed our train and missed our movie just because he wanted to help an old lady who fell down the escalator. He donates to every charity available. He remembers everybody's birthday. He remembers every single detail of the Iris's habits. I mean he is not a stalker, he is just a nice guy who pays attention to detail. I mean how you think he got a 3.5 GPA. He remembers stuff, like the way her nose crinkles when she smiles, or the way her eyes is teared up when she fakes a smile to hide her sadness, or the way she curls up on the chair when she sits in the lab or the way she hugs herself when she is feeling cold. He is the type of guy, who offer his jacket, buys for her, her favourite ice cream when she is feeling down, who would make her laugh when she frowns. The typical nice guy.
And by listening to me, all these disappears in a blink of an eye. I'm suppose to be his friend but I didnt know that he could not handle rejection well. How, am I suppose to smile when I just destroyed one of the greatest human being on this planet. Sigh...I know love hurts but this is too much, I mean Iris is doesnt know what she's missing. All I can do is hope that hopefully one day Alex will come to his senses. He wont take my calls or my messages and its just sad. There is a saying, "Hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn". I guess they were right...
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Valentine's Day (Part 3)
Ok, I'm stuck with work and I'm bored so I decided to post something up here...but I have no idea what to write...hmm...well, since its Valentine's Day...here is some songs that I think is good. I'll put the lyrics here, if anybody wants the chords or the music let me know(yeah, right)...
Give Us A Try by Me
(Song info: I actually for this particualr girl, but never really found the moment to sing/record for her. Oh well, maybe you guys have better luck)
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I wrote this song about a thousand times,
because the words keep changing in my mind.
It's not that I can't decide, i want it to be right,
it's just so hard to say the things that would change our lives.
This is coming as a shock to me too
I dont know why i feel this way around you
I never thought that this was possible
but even our star signs say we are compatible
(bridge)
so there is favour that I need you to do
close your eyes, listen to what i'm saying to you
(chorus)
give us a try
give us a chance
no one knows for sure
no one knows what's at hand
open your mind
open your heart
it's not too late
we can make brand new start
i know at this point, it's alot to take in
and you need time to ponder and think
and i would give all the time in the world
in hoping that one day i'll be calling you my girl
(bridge)
(chorus)
(repeat chorus till end)
I Couldn't Hate You by Me
(Song info: Well, this song was actually inspired by another person. Maybe if you read the lyrics closely those who know me, would probably know who. Anyway, this is my latest song and maybe my favourite. So much so that I actually recorded this song and I'm listening to it as I'm writing this entry.I also happen to think it is a GREAT song for Valentine's Day, HAHA)
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when you smile, the world seems brighter
when you listen, i'm less of a stranger
when you close your eyes, i want to be there
when you walk by, i can't help but stop and stare
but he's in you heart,
and i cant break you apart
(chorus)
i couldn't hate you if i wanted to
counldn't lie to you if i had to
cant look away you made me say
let me hate you
when i wake up, i'll think of you
when i go sleep at night, i'll dream of you
no matter what i do, you're always on my mind
no matter what i try, it's you i'll always find
but he's my friend
and i can't make it end
(chorus)
i wish that i was him
who know what will begin
i wish that i was there
to show you that i care
i wish that i could say
what needs to be said
but he's my friend
so this love got to end
(chorus)
but still the stars will shine
i cant make you mine
cant look away
you made me say
i love you
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Anyway, these two songs are great for Valentine's Day, one is for a person who you'd wish that would give you a chance. The other is for a tricky situation...but still great nevertheless. :)
Give Us A Try by Me
(Song info: I actually for this particualr girl, but never really found the moment to sing/record for her. Oh well, maybe you guys have better luck)
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I wrote this song about a thousand times,
because the words keep changing in my mind.
It's not that I can't decide, i want it to be right,
it's just so hard to say the things that would change our lives.
This is coming as a shock to me too
I dont know why i feel this way around you
I never thought that this was possible
but even our star signs say we are compatible
(bridge)
so there is favour that I need you to do
close your eyes, listen to what i'm saying to you
(chorus)
give us a try
give us a chance
no one knows for sure
no one knows what's at hand
open your mind
open your heart
it's not too late
we can make brand new start
i know at this point, it's alot to take in
and you need time to ponder and think
and i would give all the time in the world
in hoping that one day i'll be calling you my girl
(bridge)
(chorus)
(repeat chorus till end)
I Couldn't Hate You by Me
(Song info: Well, this song was actually inspired by another person. Maybe if you read the lyrics closely those who know me, would probably know who. Anyway, this is my latest song and maybe my favourite. So much so that I actually recorded this song and I'm listening to it as I'm writing this entry.I also happen to think it is a GREAT song for Valentine's Day, HAHA)
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when you smile, the world seems brighter
when you listen, i'm less of a stranger
when you close your eyes, i want to be there
when you walk by, i can't help but stop and stare
but he's in you heart,
and i cant break you apart
(chorus)
i couldn't hate you if i wanted to
counldn't lie to you if i had to
cant look away you made me say
let me hate you
when i wake up, i'll think of you
when i go sleep at night, i'll dream of you
no matter what i do, you're always on my mind
no matter what i try, it's you i'll always find
but he's my friend
and i can't make it end
(chorus)
i wish that i was him
who know what will begin
i wish that i was there
to show you that i care
i wish that i could say
what needs to be said
but he's my friend
so this love got to end
(chorus)
but still the stars will shine
i cant make you mine
cant look away
you made me say
i love you
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Anyway, these two songs are great for Valentine's Day, one is for a person who you'd wish that would give you a chance. The other is for a tricky situation...but still great nevertheless. :)
Valentine's Day (Part 2)
Taking a break from work to write part 2 of this Valentine's Day Special. Right, on with it...
These are YES or NO answer that are made for GUYS.
Have you ever wish of being with someone close to you?(Answers may vary depending on how you interpret the question)
Have you ever matchmade a couple?
How you ever matchmade a couple even though you are interested in the girl but you give way because the guy was your friend and you feel that the girl was better of with him because you thought that, that would make the girl happy and not you?
Have you ever hidden your true feelings from someone?
Have you ever hidden your true feelings from someone, because you did not want to ruin the friendship you have with that person, knowing that she will say no at that point of time so you have to bear with the poison you have inside you because you rather feel pain than not to feel anything at all?
Have you ever hidden your true feelings from someone, because you did not want to ruin the friendship you have and you are afraid of getting rejected because you cannot live through another broken heart?
Have you ever purposely act like an idiot or a jerk so that the girl will hate you and not seeing her, makes it that much easier on you, and that you don't have to tell her how you really feel?
Have you ever give advice to others about relationships, to someone you care about?(Again, answers may vary depending on how you interpret the question)
Have you ever give advice to others about relationships, to someone you care about, knowing that her significant other is an asshole and is taking advantage of her but you encourage her to give him another shot because you know that sometimes he makes her happy and all you want is to make her smile?
Have you ever give advice to others about relationships, to someone you care about, knowing that her significant other is an asshole and is taking advantage of her but you encourage her to give him another shot because you that sometimes he makes her happy and all you want is to make her smile, knowing that you can do a much better job than he can, but you keep quiet because she is just too blind to see?
Have you ever give advice to others about relationships, to someone you care about, knowing that her significant other is an asshole and is taking advantage of her but you encourage her to give him another shot because you that sometimes he makes her happy and all you want is to make her smile, knowing that you can do a much better job than he can but you keep quiet because she is just too blind to see, and no matter what you do, she just cannot see that you love her with all your heart and that you are there, wanting to protect her, be there if she is lonely or sit by her bedside when she is ill?
Finally, last question, do you think that you are going to die a lonely, grumpy, egoistic, old man?(Again, answers may vary depending on how you interpret the question)
Now for the analysis:
If your answers are YES to ALL of the questions then, you are suffering from YOUREAJACKASSANDNAIVENICEGUY syndrome(This is the scientific name).
BUT, if you even have ONE "NO", then you are fine and healthy. Although, it may not seem that way, right now, but believe me when I say, that all you have to do is work on your self-esteem. What differs you from, Brad Pitt, Tom Cruise and Will Smith is not the looks. Well, maybe the paycheck may be a "slight" difference. But the difference is ATTITUDE. Like it or not, all guys have something to offer to girls and I "think" girls know that(Well, some anyway, others are just hopeless). You to understand one thing, GOD is also a lazy person, he created laziness and we then got it from him. So do you think he take, the time to create EVERY single person individually. There are billions of people in this world for god sakes, therefore God probably just copy and paste versions of you in different parts of the world and by different versions, I mean, he probably just change the sex, skin colour and facial hair. Maybe, if he feels like it then most probably he just change your face in some funny way, but that's it. So you are bound to find your so called, "Other self". If you don't like yourself, don't worry, God is always 10000000 steps in front of you. He probably took your personality and flip it around, and VIOLA, your "Other Half", and when the two of you meet, you "complete" one another. If you don't believe in God, fair enough, the devil also take in people of the opposite sex. If not, all he will see is the re-run of Brokeback Mountain for the rest of eternity and I don't think that even the devil can stand that type of touture(If you don't understand this part, better thank God). If you don't believe, in either heaven and hell, think that is no such think and you have no religion at all, don't worry, somebody is bound to have the same views as you.
Basically, this all means that, everybody is bound to have someone, and that person is maybe already in front of you, in your class, in your CCA, in the toilet, somewhere within a 100km of where you are standing. The way I see it you have two choices, go search for that person or wait for that person to find you...and how do you know whether you found that person...well go listen to GOLD 90.5 Fm. I think they have love quotes or something like that. I remember one of the quotes was "Love is, when a person who never cook before tries to make for you a delicious meal on Valentine's Day but ends up making a mess in the kitchen and love is me, not minding cleaning up the mess"
You'll know...and if you think nobody cares for you then you're just not opening you eyes wide enough...
These are YES or NO answer that are made for GUYS.
Have you ever wish of being with someone close to you?(Answers may vary depending on how you interpret the question)
Have you ever matchmade a couple?
How you ever matchmade a couple even though you are interested in the girl but you give way because the guy was your friend and you feel that the girl was better of with him because you thought that, that would make the girl happy and not you?
Have you ever hidden your true feelings from someone?
Have you ever hidden your true feelings from someone, because you did not want to ruin the friendship you have with that person, knowing that she will say no at that point of time so you have to bear with the poison you have inside you because you rather feel pain than not to feel anything at all?
Have you ever hidden your true feelings from someone, because you did not want to ruin the friendship you have and you are afraid of getting rejected because you cannot live through another broken heart?
Have you ever purposely act like an idiot or a jerk so that the girl will hate you and not seeing her, makes it that much easier on you, and that you don't have to tell her how you really feel?
Have you ever give advice to others about relationships, to someone you care about?(Again, answers may vary depending on how you interpret the question)
Have you ever give advice to others about relationships, to someone you care about, knowing that her significant other is an asshole and is taking advantage of her but you encourage her to give him another shot because you know that sometimes he makes her happy and all you want is to make her smile?
Have you ever give advice to others about relationships, to someone you care about, knowing that her significant other is an asshole and is taking advantage of her but you encourage her to give him another shot because you that sometimes he makes her happy and all you want is to make her smile, knowing that you can do a much better job than he can, but you keep quiet because she is just too blind to see?
Have you ever give advice to others about relationships, to someone you care about, knowing that her significant other is an asshole and is taking advantage of her but you encourage her to give him another shot because you that sometimes he makes her happy and all you want is to make her smile, knowing that you can do a much better job than he can but you keep quiet because she is just too blind to see, and no matter what you do, she just cannot see that you love her with all your heart and that you are there, wanting to protect her, be there if she is lonely or sit by her bedside when she is ill?
Finally, last question, do you think that you are going to die a lonely, grumpy, egoistic, old man?(Again, answers may vary depending on how you interpret the question)
Now for the analysis:
If your answers are YES to ALL of the questions then, you are suffering from YOUREAJACKASSANDNAIVENICEGUY syndrome(This is the scientific name).
BUT, if you even have ONE "NO", then you are fine and healthy. Although, it may not seem that way, right now, but believe me when I say, that all you have to do is work on your self-esteem. What differs you from, Brad Pitt, Tom Cruise and Will Smith is not the looks. Well, maybe the paycheck may be a "slight" difference. But the difference is ATTITUDE. Like it or not, all guys have something to offer to girls and I "think" girls know that(Well, some anyway, others are just hopeless). You to understand one thing, GOD is also a lazy person, he created laziness and we then got it from him. So do you think he take, the time to create EVERY single person individually. There are billions of people in this world for god sakes, therefore God probably just copy and paste versions of you in different parts of the world and by different versions, I mean, he probably just change the sex, skin colour and facial hair. Maybe, if he feels like it then most probably he just change your face in some funny way, but that's it. So you are bound to find your so called, "Other self". If you don't like yourself, don't worry, God is always 10000000 steps in front of you. He probably took your personality and flip it around, and VIOLA, your "Other Half", and when the two of you meet, you "complete" one another. If you don't believe in God, fair enough, the devil also take in people of the opposite sex. If not, all he will see is the re-run of Brokeback Mountain for the rest of eternity and I don't think that even the devil can stand that type of touture(If you don't understand this part, better thank God). If you don't believe, in either heaven and hell, think that is no such think and you have no religion at all, don't worry, somebody is bound to have the same views as you.
Basically, this all means that, everybody is bound to have someone, and that person is maybe already in front of you, in your class, in your CCA, in the toilet, somewhere within a 100km of where you are standing. The way I see it you have two choices, go search for that person or wait for that person to find you...and how do you know whether you found that person...well go listen to GOLD 90.5 Fm. I think they have love quotes or something like that. I remember one of the quotes was "Love is, when a person who never cook before tries to make for you a delicious meal on Valentine's Day but ends up making a mess in the kitchen and love is me, not minding cleaning up the mess"
You'll know...and if you think nobody cares for you then you're just not opening you eyes wide enough...
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Valentine's Day (Part 1)
I don't know whether I am fit to preach about love at this point of time, especially with the confusion stuck in my head, but maybe this is a good distraction for me. Anyway, as you all know Valentine's Day is coming around the corner, and to some its too mushy to pay attention to, others, is just another day, but there is that few minority(like me), who thinks that Valentine's Day is a good day to make things right. So how did Valentine's Day came about? Well, some say it was due to St. Valentine's ever valiant effort to oppose one Emperor's wish to abolish marriage. Some say it was his touching effort to send his love a greeting card while he was in prison where he died. What ever story is true, it does not matter, the fact is that Valentine's Day is here and it's for everybody.
Yup, everybody. No matter, what sex, race, religion, lifestyle, the day is there. Feb 14. It's always there, whether you choose to accept it then its up to you. Valentine's Day can be painful to some because they lost the one they love whether physically or emotionally, but every bad sensation can be healed and restored, just like drinking a glass of milk when you had something to spicy. You know that the pain is there but you can't feel it anymore because it was replaced. Every mess, can be cleaned up. It's just a matter of whether you want to do it or not, and whether you have to do it with someone or alone. No matter what, Valentine is like another Christmas, just that its more for people who you think is the most important in your life. It's not only reserve for couples, I mean you can love someone without having that intimate connection, and isn't that what Valentine's Day all about. It's about love. Not couples. Just LOVE.
For those that are with a special someone this Valentine's Day. This day is the day you have the chance to make that somone feel special so take it. I know skeptics would say, "it's only a day". I say "SO WHAT". A day is 24 hours, it's 1440 mins, it's 86 400 secs. I think one day can say alot. Ask yourself this, if had a chance to spend one more day with someone that you love, wouldn't you take it? Even if it is for one day, wouldn't you want to remember that day. If that one day can make you happy, wouldn't you want that day? Well, like I said, it's there for the taking, the ball is in your court.
For those alone this Valentine's Day but with that special someone in your hearts, Valentine's Day is a good day to let it out, but I know it's hard so I'm not really going to push you guys to do anything. Just remember that if you have the chance, then just take it. Take that leap of faith, and hope you will land safely. Life's simple, you make a choice, don't look back, don't regret. That's it.
For those alone this Valentine's Day, for whatever reason. Remember that Christmas is not only about receiving but it's also about giving. Same goes for Valentine's Day. It's not whether you receive, but especially if you are hurting, when you give someone your love(and it could be just be a friend) and you made that person's day, you make them feel better, but most importantly you make yourself feel better because you show yourself you are still capable of love. And the only thing that is stopping you from loving, is yourself.
This valentine's day I will probably be alone(standard!) because of medical leave. So while, I'll be at home hoping to recover, music always makes me feel better. Here is my playlist for Valentine's Day, it's not all emo and some are a bit corny, but maybe some songs might make you feel better, others will share the emotion that you are feeling so at least you know that you are not alone.
My Valentine playlist:
Love Hurts by Incubus (Strong lyrical presence)
Valentine's Day by Linkin Park
Whatever It Takes by Lifehouse (good for struggling couples that wants to make it better)
Runaway Train by Soul Asylum (oldie but goodie)
Dear God by Avenged Sevefold (some people won't like this one)
If She Only Knew by 98 degrees (the title says it all)
Invisible Man by 98 degrees (again title says it all)
Revelation by The Wedding (good wedding song. HAHA)
If You Could Only See by Tonic (another oldie but goodie)
Over and Over by Three Days Grace
Pain by Three Days Grace
Everything You Want by Vertical Horizon (the lyric somehow got meaning for me)
Okay by Swirl 360 (a calm breakup song)
I Hate This Song by Secondhand Serenade
The Last Song Ever by Secondhand Serenade
Your Call by Secondhand Serenade
Lost by Micheal Buble
How to Save A Life by The Fray
The Distance by Evan & Jaron (a good song for someone going away)
Empty by The Click 5
I Wanna Be by Chris Brown
Hate That I Love You by Rihanna feat. Ne-Yo
Looking Back On Today by the Ataris
Everything We Had by The Academy Is
Better Than Me by Hinder
These songs are the special ones:
The Girl That Got Away by Me (For someone)
Give Us Try by Me (Also for someone)
I Couldn't Hate You by Me (Ok, its for someone)
Why??? by Shafie (Sounds cool although not done, HAHAHAHA)
Portrait of A Broken Heart by Me (No tune yet though...damn...)
Yup, everybody. No matter, what sex, race, religion, lifestyle, the day is there. Feb 14. It's always there, whether you choose to accept it then its up to you. Valentine's Day can be painful to some because they lost the one they love whether physically or emotionally, but every bad sensation can be healed and restored, just like drinking a glass of milk when you had something to spicy. You know that the pain is there but you can't feel it anymore because it was replaced. Every mess, can be cleaned up. It's just a matter of whether you want to do it or not, and whether you have to do it with someone or alone. No matter what, Valentine is like another Christmas, just that its more for people who you think is the most important in your life. It's not only reserve for couples, I mean you can love someone without having that intimate connection, and isn't that what Valentine's Day all about. It's about love. Not couples. Just LOVE.
For those that are with a special someone this Valentine's Day. This day is the day you have the chance to make that somone feel special so take it. I know skeptics would say, "it's only a day". I say "SO WHAT". A day is 24 hours, it's 1440 mins, it's 86 400 secs. I think one day can say alot. Ask yourself this, if had a chance to spend one more day with someone that you love, wouldn't you take it? Even if it is for one day, wouldn't you want to remember that day. If that one day can make you happy, wouldn't you want that day? Well, like I said, it's there for the taking, the ball is in your court.
For those alone this Valentine's Day but with that special someone in your hearts, Valentine's Day is a good day to let it out, but I know it's hard so I'm not really going to push you guys to do anything. Just remember that if you have the chance, then just take it. Take that leap of faith, and hope you will land safely. Life's simple, you make a choice, don't look back, don't regret. That's it.
For those alone this Valentine's Day, for whatever reason. Remember that Christmas is not only about receiving but it's also about giving. Same goes for Valentine's Day. It's not whether you receive, but especially if you are hurting, when you give someone your love(and it could be just be a friend) and you made that person's day, you make them feel better, but most importantly you make yourself feel better because you show yourself you are still capable of love. And the only thing that is stopping you from loving, is yourself.
This valentine's day I will probably be alone(standard!) because of medical leave. So while, I'll be at home hoping to recover, music always makes me feel better. Here is my playlist for Valentine's Day, it's not all emo and some are a bit corny, but maybe some songs might make you feel better, others will share the emotion that you are feeling so at least you know that you are not alone.
My Valentine playlist:
Love Hurts by Incubus (Strong lyrical presence)
Valentine's Day by Linkin Park
Whatever It Takes by Lifehouse (good for struggling couples that wants to make it better)
Runaway Train by Soul Asylum (oldie but goodie)
Dear God by Avenged Sevefold (some people won't like this one)
If She Only Knew by 98 degrees (the title says it all)
Invisible Man by 98 degrees (again title says it all)
Revelation by The Wedding (good wedding song. HAHA)
If You Could Only See by Tonic (another oldie but goodie)
Over and Over by Three Days Grace
Pain by Three Days Grace
Everything You Want by Vertical Horizon (the lyric somehow got meaning for me)
Okay by Swirl 360 (a calm breakup song)
I Hate This Song by Secondhand Serenade
The Last Song Ever by Secondhand Serenade
Your Call by Secondhand Serenade
Lost by Micheal Buble
How to Save A Life by The Fray
The Distance by Evan & Jaron (a good song for someone going away)
Empty by The Click 5
I Wanna Be by Chris Brown
Hate That I Love You by Rihanna feat. Ne-Yo
Looking Back On Today by the Ataris
Everything We Had by The Academy Is
Better Than Me by Hinder
These songs are the special ones:
The Girl That Got Away by Me (For someone)
Give Us Try by Me (Also for someone)
I Couldn't Hate You by Me (Ok, its for someone)
Why??? by Shafie (Sounds cool although not done, HAHAHAHA)
Portrait of A Broken Heart by Me (No tune yet though...damn...)
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