Can't A Guy Get A Break??...

Frustrating, irritating and not to mention, very painful. I never ask anything in return, almost never. I just accepted whatever I got, but how long do I have to keep this up? When is it my turn to reap the rewards? When is it my turn to just relax and let the effort go to someone else? When is it my turn to just sit back and relax???!!! Is that too much to ask....

Sometimes I wonder whether all this is happening, as a form of my punishment or a bunch of test I have to put with...I keep telling myself, "What doesn't kill me only makes me stronger..." But now i'm wishing these test would just kill me already. So I guess its my punishment....

SO FUCKING KILL ME ALREADY!!!!!

But I guess that would just be too easy, now wouldn't it...