Weight On My Shoulders...

The first time I heard news...shoulders became heavy and my eyes became watery. Then my brother screamed at me, "Telling me that I have to be strong. I have to be a man."
The tears I want to shed were not there, still I needed someone to talk to, surely I can't handle this by myself. I called the only person I loved, but there was no answer even when I repeated my calls. When I felt down, my brother screamed at me again and the words was stuck in my head, "I must be strong!"

Later, when I saw this sign, as you can see in the pic above, I laughed. For the sake for those that cannot see from the pic, it says, "EVERY SINGLE WORD OF ENCOURAGEMENT HELPED TRANSFORM OUR FEAR INTO COURAGE" I have no idea why I laughed. But at that point, I guess I was just being brave. Maybe I laughed because I know that even if there was no word of encouragement from any source, I still have to tranform my greatest fear into courage. And tomorrow at 8 am in the morning, I would have to be stronger than I have ever been in my whole entire life, no matter what the doctor tells me. I must be strong...