Juggling, I guess that is the activity of the year for me. But I'm not talking about juggling life or the different portions of your life. For me, i have to juggle baggage, emotional baggage to be precise. Baggage and lies, that is all I juggle now. There are moments when I feel like giving up and telling the truth but I know the truth is overrated. Whoever said, "The truth would set you free", should be hanged and shot. If you want to know what the truth can do, go watch the show moment of truth, though I find the show very utterly disgusting, the consquences are all so true. Now, i'm stuck with another lie in my face. Living another lie, but I just can't bear to let it go because for the first time in my life, I finally find myself where I want to be, but my utopia is not to be because of obstacles that others cannot surpass. So again, I end up alone over the ridge and in the fields, wondering if the grass is really greener on the otherside. It is pathetic that I found comfort in her misery, but I guess one gesture of love was all I was looking for, and now that gesture has been reversed, I feel like I'm back to where I started. Working harder than even before just so I could get ahead a little further. It's human to want more, but so is to err. I guess I have to be contented with the situtation at hand, I mean, I'm even lucky to have anything at all, but I guess it was my turn to be tired, I was tired for the last 20 years, what's another 20 more...
If you were to see some other blogs you would probably see the song that is shown below. Anyway, enjoy... :)
"I'm always ok..."
~ Amin SK....
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